don't know what I should call it..

rabb...
ntah kenapa dalam setiap langkah aku merasa ada arahan dariMu..
yaaahhh...ini bagus sekali..
krn aku sadar, memang Engkau sangat dekat, sedekat urat nadi dalam diriku..

rabb...
what I am looking for?...
u know the answer surely...
I just plan, do, action and check details...
but the decision is in ur hand..

rabb...
shoul I call it, loneliness...
or just jealous with others..
yupp..others that show-off the closest relation..
showing to me how act like the world just have they are...

rabb...
when is my turn...??..
when I can tell to the world...that I can do like others done...
hhhmmmm...but I believe u have the best plan for me..
may be my lucky now changes with something that I should have now..

guide me rabb..